My Gut-o-meter Is Broken

31 May

I am driving myself insane. Not only are my kids pushing me to the brink of insanity, I am now scooting myself towards a strait jacket. I seem to be having some serious issues making decisions lately. I’m not sure if it’s sleep deprivation clouding my mind or the utter chaos surrounding me. I go over these scenarios in my head over and over again each one trying to predict the future. In certain situations I am totally a gut instinct girl. For example, when HB asks if we can get a puppy, that is clearly a no frickin’ way. The last thing I need is another thing (no matter how cute) that pees, poops and runs around tearing the house up. Or when the husband suggests that we take a family vacation to a faraway locale, again, an instant gut reaction, no frickin’ way.
The decisions I’m struggling with just don’t seem to be moving to my gut, they are stuck in the hamster wheel of my head. Should the twins go to school 2, 3, or 5 half days in September? Are they acting like wild monkeys because they need less Mommy more school? Do I need a housekeeper/helper more than I need a part time nanny at this point? Is this just the terrible two’s paired with a precocious 5 year old or do we need a major schedule shift? Should I move to The Valley, The OC, somewhere where kids actually play on the street? Am I supposed to still be in survival mode or should I be past that?
I am not so confused as to think that in the grand scheme of life that these are serious issues. I am aware of what real “real” parenting issues are. I thank G-D that these are the types of dilemmas I’m faced with. But currently telling myself that at least we have a roof over our heads and food on the table is not making me any less neurotic.
So, I’m going to leave it up to you ladies and gentlemen – What are the answers I seek oh wise readers. Please help a Motha out. I may be asking a bunch of random strangers reading this for advice but until my gut kicks in, it can’t hurt…


3 Responses to “My Gut-o-meter Is Broken”

  1. Alexandra May 31, 2012 at 3:35 pm #

    Well, you can borrow/visit Louis XIV any time you want to allay the dog issue. And yes, you’re right – you have mostly quality problems, but it’s okay to have a bad day and question one’s sanity. And no, don’t go back to the ‘burbs! You’ll wind up spending a ton of money to emulate all the fabulous we have here, and then what’s the point? ;)

  2. calibamamom June 13, 2012 at 9:49 am #

    I completely agree with Alex!

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