The House Where Fish Come To Die

15 Jul

Our Betta fish just keep dying. No matter how hard I try to keep them alive, I cannot seem to spare each and every one from the same fate. I am the black widow of household Betta fish. Today my 5 year old asked me why our beloved pets keep dying and going to GOD in heaven. Of course I just stood and blankly stared at her for 30 seconds and then I said, “Maybe, it’s just not meant to be,” I waited for her response hoping this would kill the topic (pun intended) But nope, she says to me, “What the heck does that mean? WHO says we aren’t meant to have a fish?!?!”

Fate. I’m not really sure where I stand on the idea of a predetermined future. the concept that my ending is already written just doesn’t make sense to me. I have made way too many wrong and a few right choices to believe that I had nothing to do with where I am today.

I do know in my heart of hearts that there are some things that are just meant to be.

I have faith that we end up with the children we are meant to raise. Whether we actually grow those babies in our own womb or end up with them another rout. One way or another, parents end up with the child the universe wants them to love.

My friends. Each friend I have made has taught me a lesson or shown me something I wouldn’t have seen otherwise, good and bad. My friends have all crossed my path for a reason. With the crazy world of Facebook, people that had meaning in my life when I was 12 or 22 are back, and it’s been wonderful.

As for everything else in life, well, I’m just not sure. I definitely get gut feelings, like when my get tells me not to get in the elevator with someone…I never get in. Or, if I meet someone and I just know something is “off” about them, I am almost always right. But as far as a master plan that I am merely a player in, I don’t think so. I like to know that even though I am pretty locked in with a husband and three kids, the day to day choices are still entirely mine to make.

Am I Leslie P, destined to kill all fish who swim through our front door? Possibly.
Is it going to stop me from taking all the kids on an outing to PetSmart in the morning to buy another fish? Not a chance.


Do you believe in destiny? Click on the comments section and share away.


6 Responses to “The House Where Fish Come To Die”

  1. JLO July 15, 2012 at 11:42 pm #

    It must be the water in Beverly hills. Our 3rd betta fish is sick playing dead on the rocks and will be flushed by Friday! See you at Petco!

    • 90210mom July 17, 2012 at 9:17 pm #

      Maybe it’s the air in Beverly Hills???

  2. Shelly Berenbaum July 16, 2012 at 8:42 am #

    I had a Beta fish for over a year. If you put a bamboo plant in the water with the fish, it seems to keep them alive much longer. Try it.

  3. Sleeping Should Be Easy July 16, 2012 at 10:08 am #

    Sorry about your fish! I can’t say I believe in destiny or that we have a pre-written life laid out for us. I think things just happen, and the only choice we have is what we do with our time. I also think that things work out somehow but not necessarily because it’s pre-written but more because we were able to work around what has happened so far.

    • 90210mom July 17, 2012 at 9:15 pm #

      Well said. Thanks for the condolences :)

  4. Jolie July 16, 2012 at 10:43 am #

    Did this so called gut of yours remind you maybe you missed someone’s birthday yesterday?

    No worries. Buy me a fish and we’re square.

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